for ben

ben, i have to admit- you’ve always been some kind of weird

… in a cute way.

you had the sweetest texan accent.

you had the most lively blue eyes that i have ever looked into.

you loved to talk.

you loved to listen.

you always asked: How are ya doin'?

you really cared.

but seems like people didn’t care about you.

since yesterday i know that you are gone.

the bullet went straight into your heart.

Ben. I AM SORRY -

for the times i didn’t listen.

for the times i didn’t spend enough attention.

why didn’t i show you how beautiful life is?

if i come back, you won’t be there.

now, there is a hole in my heart too.

but i am still alive.

because life is too precious. it's too beautiful.